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Faith a word I never really understood.  But the last two months has set the mode to find the meaning.  The death of my best friends my mom and dad and the actions of my church were the backdrop for really seeking God outside my traditional church. I was so hurt with the uncaring attitude of my brothers and sisters I was lost, lonely and unsure why I would want to stay in a place that spoke of Jesus as a caring a loving brother and then seeing the actions that followed them that believed. This journey took me many places and books only to bring me back to the book my bible and the names Ive heard all my life but with new eyes.  This last two months brought me the death of a school friend from morbid obesity, the death of my precious aunt, the separation of my son and daughter in law, the loss of three of my grand-puppies and the last the death of my 16 year old dog ..He was the most faithful companion I ever had.  A mixed breed part lab he came to live with us from the vet, someone had brought in a box with 5 puppies and he was the clown , we couldn’t walk away from the kennel without his howling, rolling and barking to get our attention, so my son scoped him up and he came home with us..16 years that’s a long time to get up every morning and see the same face and tail wagging..He was so very sick he hadn’t ate for 4 days I tried everything but he would still rise up in the morn..wag his tail and outside we would go….I never wanted to say goodby not now …now ever…the vet said he might have 3 days left but he was starving so my sweet Zeak …….I brought him home and buried him that was the hardest day ever when I came home and that little black ball wasn’t laying there and following me from room to room..I had to ask did I take away from the few days he had or did I spare him the misery of starvation?  I don’t really have peace yet…God gives us the definition of faith…Things hoped for and not seen…Peace hoped for but not yet found…..So back to hanging on to Faith…its the only thing to do… 

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Just trying out the blog-thing to see what Im doing..Been wanting write for a long time stories about my childhood visits with my grandparents..so gotta dig out the pictures, watch a few videos on blogging and Ill be back..Love and Light……………

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